But It's So Hard!

May 24, 2016

Recently in third grade, we had a little breakdown of sorts.

On the kickball field during recess, there was a squabble between two little girls.  I can’t even remember exactly what it was about, but at the time both girls were very upset with each other and no one wanted to fess up.

I talked with both girls in the hallway about showing kindness to others and about saying I’m sorry.  I told them that they needed to ask each other for forgiveness since they had intentionally wronged the other, then I went into my classroom and told them to come inside when they had done those things.

After a few minutes I realized that they were both still outside and one girl was still crying and literally curled up into a ball on the floor.  I realized that this was a big deal for her and it took lots of patience and a really long time for her to come back inside and join the class.  Finally the day went on and I really didn’t think much about it again.  The girls were fine and it was Friday so we were all happy.

BUT, when Monday rolled around, this same little girl stopped me in my tracks as we were walking out to recess.

Out of nowhere she says, “Mme. Brad, why do we have to forgive?”

“Well, the Bible talks a lot about it and how we need to forgive others like Jesus forgives us,” I replied.

“But it’s so hard!” she said as she ran off to play kickball.  And that was it.

I was so taken back by the fact that she’d mulled this forgiveness idea around for the whole weekend and that she brought it up to me again.  I had seen how incredibly hard it was for her.  And in that moment I completely resonated with my little student.

It IS so hard.  Not just forgiveness, but this whole upside down way of living that Christ has called us to.  Let’s not pretend that it’s easy.  There are days when I’m curled up into a ball just like her, begging God to help me, and I don’t want to stand up.   

Let us remember that Jesus knows what we need.  He knows we need help to follow in his ways.  I am so thankful for the childlike image of the struggle we all face as we venture out into this world, learning to live and love like Him.  When it’s hard, let us encourage one another.  Let us pray for each other.  Let us lift praises to the One who is our Help, our Strength, and our Guide.  The struggle is real.  But there is strength and hope for the journey.

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.  2 Corinthians 12:9